| forever and a day.... |
[09 Jul 2004|03:26pm] |
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"the letter" - PJ Harvey |
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I'M ALIVE...just barely.
I haven't updated in forever, and I feel really bad for it. I WAS going to update a few days ago, but our DSL and phone line went down the shitter. Then by the time I stop working long enough to have a breath and relax, David wants to spend all his time with me, and if I don't spend time with him, he gets all sad. I'm a bad girlfriend. THEN, if he's working and I'm not spending time with him or working myself, I'm helping my momma around the house. Her RA has been getting worse.
All in all, I guess I can't complain, I just miss my friends here. I feel so lost and out of touch. I'm talking to Kia right now, she's the only one here. THAT LUCKY HO BAG MET SMIFF!
In other news, WHAT IS THIS BULL?! *sighs deeply* I suppose it's just the movement of things. This is what happens when you're gone for so long, Di. *smacks self*
Aye well.
"I need YOU
But Time is running OUT
Oh BABY
Can't you here me CALL?"
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[29 May 2004|02:32pm] |
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| D | Desperate | | I | Intense | | O | Outrageous | | N | Natural | | Y | Yummy | | S | Skillful | | U | Unusual | | S | Smart |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
fuck yeah.
;_;
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[14 May 2004|11:42pm] |
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"try" - nelly furtado |
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i am eating a motherfucking poptart right now and fuming mad.
i've got tears BURNING in my eyes. y'know, the kind that don't fall out of your eyes at all, the kind that are just there, burning.
and i did IT again. yeah, THAT it. more scars. i PROMISED me i'd fucking stop. i'm such a goddamn hypocrite.
i should be SO fucking happy. i have a wonderful, amazing guy who LOVES me. he loves EVERYTHING about me. all the fucked up shit that i hate about me, he loves. i have a job, i have aboyfriend, and i'm NOT fucking happy. i'm still doing THIS shit to myself.
WHY can't i be happy? why why why why fucking why?!
......AND i just got fucking poptart jelly on my goddamn sleeve. fuckin' great.
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[07 May 2004|03:48pm] |
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"was it a lie" - sleater-kinney |
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okay, just a quick word to the wise...
if there are oranges in your refirgerator and you don't know how long they've been in there....
.....don't fucking eat them.
i've done nothing but puke for the past 30-something odd hours.
i want to die.
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| "A bug! Kill it! A Bug! Get It!!" |
[01 May 2004|06:15pm] |
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"firefly" - H2B |
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what the fuck?!
there's actually a band called "hot action cop"!?
I HAD NO FUCKING IDEA!!!!!
whoa....
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| "Tra-la-la-la-l-l-l-l-la pony for honey!" |
[23 Apr 2004|02:11am] |
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"big big lights" - Sleater-Kinney |
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Who wants to kick someone's ass for me?
I got this message from a user at myspace named "You're a whore":
Well aren't you just an ugly whore. I'm starting an online community of ugly whores and I'd like to invite you to join. Congratulations!
Here's the link to his profile:
http://www.myspace.com/3254073.usr
Enjoy.
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[22 Apr 2004|01:07am] |
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i'm about to blow my own goddamn brains out if i have to be here another second.
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[17 Apr 2004|01:04am] |
I'm gonna puke.
I'm gonna puke.
I'm gonna puke.
I'm gonna puke!
*pukes*
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| stoled it from nance |
[15 Apr 2004|01:03am] |
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I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. I will answer them as fully as I can, and I will answer them honestly. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this, allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.
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| fuckdammit |
[13 Apr 2004|01:06am] |
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"Machine" - Yeah Yeah Yeahs |
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I went shopping today. I BOUGHT "WEEZER: VIDEO CAPTURE DEVICE: TREASURES FROM THE VAULT 1991-2002"!!!!!!! It fuckin' rules. The Mykel and Carli memorial concert footage made me cry. So amazing. And the "How Not To Do An Interview" was the fucking funniest thing I have ever seen in my entire life!
But anyway, went shopping at MY Wal-Mart on my day off, looking for some transfers for dark t-shirts. I didn't find them at my store so I had to go to the one on Greenwood. HOT ASS GUY WORKING THERE NAMED JOHNNY. I mean hot.as.fuck.y'all. So...yeah. I went to best buy looking for BSITS and I didn't find it so I bought my =W= instead.
It's getting so hard to do everything. Work, are pee, chores, moral support, listen, write, create, be. I feel like i have so much to do yet i'm doing nothing. it sucks.
i hope i see david tommorrow. i may actually ask him out...or play coy and sneaky and get him to ask ME out. i'mma make this happen goddammit.
he said i was cute. this is our exact conversation...i was talking about how Lonnie had a girlfriend:
David: You think Lonnie's hot and all that, right?
Me: Psssh, yeah!
David: Did you really expect someone that hot to be single for long?
Me: *dejectedly* No...
David: It's just like you.
Me: What do you mean?
David: I would have expected you to have a boyfriend.
Me: Pff, what? Why?
David: You're cute.
Me: Dude...seek help, like NOW.
But in all reality, that totally made my day. and the hug, the squeeze he gave me before i went home. i've been thinking about that all day. and i smile. i even called crystal today and told her i had a guy. i also replied to stephanie's letter and told her i had a guy. i hope its not to presumptuous of me. to just assume its gonna happen....but i mean...come ON.
please, god? you owe me one. BIG time. and you KNOW it.
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| "Pass that Versace" |
[06 Apr 2004|04:45am] |
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"All falls down" - Kanye West |
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I command you all drool over my new icon.....BEHOLD IT!
i NEED to get this movie--"Bishounen No Koi". I'll do ANYthing! Anything! *sly wink*
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| Jockin' the bitches, slappin' the hos. |
[02 Apr 2004|04:08pm] |
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"Boy n' that hood" - Dynamite Hack |
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You bet your bitch-ass its raining like a mutha outside right now.
I LOVE rain an unholy amount. I wish it'd rain everyday. (Btw, "Ice Water" by Cat Power is NOT a good song to listen to on a rainy day! I switched it over to some Dynamite Hack...)
I hafta be at work in an hour. Pssh, why did I hop online? Oh yeah!
( FOR KIA ONLY! )
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| Got a plan, and we're gonna do bad. |
[02 Apr 2004|01:06am] |
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"The Golden Fruit" - Mary Timony |
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[01 Apr 2004|03:18am] |
( Ho-ly shit )
We're thinkin'....it's an April Fool's joke.
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| You bet your ass... |
[01 Apr 2004|01:22am] |
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goddamn fucking "ice water" by cat power, goddammit. |
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...I have a new av.
Dammit. *points to mood*
I was gonna say something, but I totally forgot what it was now. Crap! Psssh, if I remember, I'll come back later.
Damn "Ice Water"!
Dammit, Sarah!
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| last update, i SWEAR! |
[30 Mar 2004|03:07am] |
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"sad girls" - Pretty Girls Make Graves |
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Waiting, wondering,
While trying to own up, if I find the words,
Apologies are useless without
An address to send them to
Waiting, wondering,
How long you could be missing from my life
Without a clue
I've racked my brain about a hundred times a day
I'm confused by everything, I've used my means,
I'm still uncertain
Now it boils down to one big question
Are we separated by five states, two countries,
Or the next town over?
Sad girls for life!
Sad girls for life!
Sad girls for life!
Sad girls for life!
(I just want to say)
I've racked my brain about a hundred times a day
I'm confused by everything,
I've used my means,
I'm still uncertain
Waiting, wondering
I guess I'll keep my fingers
Crossed till I can get an answer
Sad girls for life!
Sad girls for life!
Sad girls for life!
Sad girls for life!
(I just want to say)
(What's the last thing I said to you?
Can't count on anyone but you)
Wait, wait, wait,
I'll wait here for you
I'll wait here for you
I'll wait here for you
I'll wait here for you....
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